Have you ever felt truely alone? It's not the greatest of feelings, and for a long time, it didnt bother me. Ive always been alone, no brothers or sisters to idolise, or envy. Nothing like that. I mean sure ive got my friends, and their the best friends in the world. Even so, they still can't keep me company all the time. Sometimes, most times, I am alone. I suppose im used to it, and i suppose im not as emotionally open as other people because of that.
Never having someone to tell your sorrows to, you get used to keeping them inside. As a result, im afraid of showing my feelings... my fears, hopes, even my dreams. It's not that i dont trust the people i would tell them too... It's more i dont know how to tell them. There my secrets, and you dont need to tell yourself them do you, you just know. But nobody else knows, to others im always fine, im always cheery. You'd be surpirsed what a smile can cover.
Im lonely, and i want someone to hold me, to care for me... I want to know someone is thinking about me, missing me. But i just can't see it. I can't feel it anymore. The world just seems empty and cold.
What i would give to express myself propperly...
For someone to understand what its like to feel forgotten.
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